smileee.

2008-01-08T16:48:00.000-08:00

HI DUDES!

my blog is -dead- for succha long time so i plan to revive ABIT. hmm..school jus started. n i went to 3e4. Actually chose 3e3, but last min found out that i chose wrongly.. haha. did alot of things during d holidays. went out almost everyday too. n went clubbing too! &working..but not nw. somehow i just sacked d boss xD my working place is damn far! Holland V which is located in buona vista. dammit far okay. have to travel from bedok all d way to holland v and d boss there treated his staff like F. THEY THINK WE GO THERE SELL NASI LEMAK AH. no manners to me siah. heh.

theres a sentence which has been hanging over my mouth these days, i dont know why too?
I GOT IT FROM MY MAMA~~aft school reopen, im tired and sleepy everyday. d reason why is b'cause im used to sleep at around 4-5 in d midnight, & suddenly wants me to change my sleeping time is CANNOT LA ADOEH, ha. just remembered that my D&G light blue perfume is finishing soon gotta buy a new one. its only abt $60 for a small one, ANYONE WANTS TO BUY FOR ME? i will love you if you do but i wont以身相娶。i dont know if its in d correct chinese word. im currently in school's comp lab. cher want us to do chinese news blog. WTH. we have to type chinese for d whole blog! hack..

2007-06-10T10:38:00.000-07:00

knowing that how many zillions years i havent been blogging, so yeah, now a post for you(or me).
few things i wanto update,

currently in perth, located in aus. im right now freezing cold here, its winter time her on june,july & august. so it would be getting colder to colder to minimum of 8degrees. how am i here? i should say..quite bored. malls closes at 5pm(except for thurs & fri), sky darkens at 5pm too. getting early sleeps here cox the sky turns really dark that you thought its alr midnight & you'll head for your bed. so far only when to tumbulgum farm, wildlife park, kings park, flea market, fremantle prison & market, and some of the malls. been working for ma aunt's cafe too. wth, have to wake up as early as 5am in the morning & you will shake. coming back this thurs at the 14th.

found out abt jasmine's death while holidaying, was shock & speechless at first & turns out crying on the phone. its really unbelieveable. couldnt imagine hows ahyi now. hope he's fine & jasmine would rest in peace. & fk those reporters who post her photo on the newspaper headlines. their parents didnt teach them whats respect.

& people is saying why i didnt contact them but only sam. i did tried calling but failed, sam's phone also! i contact him only when he calls me. i only could msg him now.

bought the gifts already, & now ma wallet is empty. but i could say at least ma wallet worth something, bought it here, its a GUESS wallet. its not imitation okay.

wished for clubbings & parties when i get back. i miss everyone. wanted to go back badly.

ive been strong & hanged on for so long.
i'll continue doing so.
i miss ma boy.

Happy New Year!

2007-02-22T19:46:00.000-08:00

happy new year darlings! it was the most boring new year of ma life. on new year, all ma relatives came to ma house & that night, me & yen when to meet fong & guojie that night. we were like slacking arnd tampines and went home aft that. the second day, we went to georges bar in siglap. it was the same boss as mine in fisherman. but the diff is this is a bar, fisherman is a seafood restaurant. we went gambling that night & i lost about$70+ to someone & sth happen that i cant say.=X third day we went back to the same place again..

im in the comp lab nw. realised that i havent been posting for a long time. didnt go for sch ytd, went halfway the previous day. wanted to quit smoking & ended up sick. quite successful, thou theres some running nose now. once a long time is okay. haha. (i said it myself.) i asked ahfong to come & fetch me aft recess the day before ytd. we actually bought 1kg of crab & decided to cook it in guojie's house. & in the end, his grandma doesnt like the smell of the crab. waste ma money. so we decided to eat it in fisherman. guess what, guojie left the pack of crabs at the 201kopitiam in tamp. we was like wtf, ma crab gonecase.

lol. gotta work tml. i need sticks & tissues.
shouldnt have learn it earlier.d
yearn for clubbing.! its been like a thousanddddddddddddd years we last went in & got crazy.

smackthat!

2007-02-13T04:23:00.000-08:00

didnt update for a long time. so sorry guys. tmls val's day. not interested in relationship so val day is nothing to me. just hope that some horrible creature gave me one be shock that i dont want & i'll be contented. working tml. yesterday went bugis with guojie & xiuzhen. buy clothes, bag & shoes, dig ma wallet till theres left with a hole. quite tired of ma hairstyle, but still i cant change it. gna get ma fake id tml! tml got common test, shittt. did not study. tryna catchup tml. got lotsa photos to upload for. but didnt.. & videos too..

2007-01-23T06:44:00.000-08:00

so tired, still had to go school. tml still have PE, surely kena torture by mr tan. waha. these few days, aft sch, is either slack at mamashop or inter. today went wanyi's house. she bought two small lil cute hamsters. both active but one of them dammit rough. that stupid hamster of hers kept finding fights with the another one & scratched till it bleed. we watched tong hua mong xiang by andy lau. not bad, touching. update some videos, haha. all by guojie, the 'stunts' he did was actually i taught him to do so, those stupid ideas of mine. haha. got work on thurs,fri & sun...hmm

i kept telling maself to quit smoking, but it doesnt work. sometimes temptation & addiction would affect me. i didnt want it either. so regretful..

in eng class, i was there day dreaming & thinking of things while the teacher "talking to herself". i thought of many things. why girls always get sad & cry over guys so much? in ma point, i think its you yourself control your own emotion, you decide how you feel & do. not those fking guys cause it. yeah, they have faults, but girls shouldnt cry or get sad because of them. youre sad, he didnt care. you cry?- none of his business anyway! its just how we think, its like if you kept thinking that -that bastard ditch me here, im all alone, i love him so much, how could he do this to me??- that whatever bastard ditch you, oh so what? no more guys would love you? you are alone?, whatabt your friends?isnt them humans too? you said he did this to you?then you shouldnt love him anymore. actually, this kind of things, he more you think, the more youre sad, the more you cry. whatabt- though he ditch me but i wont give up easily, i will be strong & try ways to win him back. sacrifice anything for love is worth it.- if you want him back, dont need to be shag, hang on tight. or- that fucking short dick guy, ditch me yeah. so what? ditch me ditch me la. i wont lose ma face, i dont believe no other guy would want me. ditch me? big fuck!- get strong. dont let the guy think that you cant live without him. imagine him ditching you & sees you aft sometime you are still that cheerful & active, he'll be shock.

sometimes God want you & your guy to separate its not because of he wanted to break up both of you or anything. its just that he want you to find a better guy, the one who loves you & dotes you more. so you musnt be unhappy instead of being happy & excited. you just have to be waiting for the next guy, you dont know who. its just the matter of time, you just need to get freaking excited.

2007-01-19T23:36:00.000-08:00

didnt work today. ma mum wants me to help her out. so i took off today.just knew that ma big aunt in msia came today. didnt saw her, she was at ma mum's shop. stayed at home for the whole day & ma bill came..burst. thought ma mum would scold fiercely when she came back but she didnt, just scold abit & asked me to give her 50bucks of ma pay for her to pay ma phone bill, $109++.

benchoo is going get me a 18yrs fake id. haha. it cost 50bucks but he asked me not to pay him back. but i wanto. i dont wanna owe him anything more. i dont wanna be the bad guys in people's eyes once more. suddenly having the feeling of going to club. maybe new year..

felt so not in the mood..
but there was not one to see i wanna be crazy & happy.

i wanna go for work tml!

2007-01-15T03:49:00.000-08:00

bought Dolce & Gabbana light blue perfume(small) for $53.90. ya its ex, but it worth it. no pain no gain. wanna get good products must have sacrifices. go for that because it have a smooth & nice smell. & xiuzhen bought a eye circles & bag cream for $59.90, its damn small container but imported from switz.

went slacking near our sch's mama stall. we played cards. ive never gamble before, its the first time today. & i lost $7, then zhen helped me play & give out $2. lost at first, but won back later & we bought a pack of cig. then the police came & ruin our fun, caught us smoking & confiscated Gabriel's cig. luckily zhen hide it under the chair. we went back to the place aft the police had gone & took it back. waha.

went home, told ma mum ive work tml. & she immediately shouted no way, wth. dont know how to tell yichun tml. she wanted me to study & not work on sch days. she kept objecting about me going for work. she doesnt understand why im so serious about work now though they gave me money. i never been serious abt work before. i felt so happy working there, when theres finally people came & praise me. whenever i took ma pay, the kind of feeling is really up to the sky & what i was thinking is, "wow, the money i had earn for myself.." & everyone there care & concern for me. so i'll rather work than rotting at home, listening to those naggings. but i'll be sure that i wont neglect ma studies. i dont mind being tired or stressed up.. as long im happy..

2007-01-13T11:33:00.000-08:00

yesterday was quite a fun day. actually we have work on that day but it was raining & fisherman flooded so theres more more work. & i wento pasirris to slack around with xz & gj, ben came aft that. we went around xiuzhen's block to slack. suddenly the clown, GJ took out a blue plastic string from nowhere & asked me to tie him up. & it was damn fun watching him trying to unknot the string, i shot it down as a video and updated it, dont mind watching it in ma bloggy.

aft slacking arnd, we went elias mall eating & went to the cc beside it to slack again. we are so bored that i thought of an idea to shoot a movie. & we shot golden leg part 1 & 2. it was damn fun. we planned to shoot golden leg part 3 but we have no more time aft ben told us about a r21 comedy movie, it was quite funny, an irritating movie but freaking funny. the movie title was boawart(if im not wrong.). we went home at about 1am in ma sch uni.. & when i reached arnd ma block, i saw meixuan with a guy, we had few conversation & i went back to ma sweet & sour home. haha.

no more pls.

2007-01-11T04:36:00.000-08:00

so sorry, didnt post for a long time. i'll repay okay.

so..christmas eve n new year eve was a blast.
though had to work on that two days. but its contented enough.
there's dancefloor, DJs n lots. damn nice la.

im in love with whitesands res. the people there are nice
and im happy working there too. just that ma mother was quite objecting about it.
they were afraid that i might neglect ma studies which im sure i would not.
studies were rather quite impt to me now.
i cant accept that the day since i step in to sec sch, i go last class position in every examinations. hope they would understand.

im planning to quit smoking. i asked GJ to buy a pack of nicorette for me, wanna test if
it would be in use or not. he bought the smallest dosage,2mg. i dont think its enough, should buy 4mg for that $19.90(30tablets). i dont wanna smoke for the rest of ma life, im a girl okay. lets move on..

first day of school, i was being sent home because of ma dye-d hair. i thought those lil golden highlights is hid inside but actually it was not. so i asked q's dad to act as ma father. & we went to watch a movie aft that. haha. but was rather furious. dont wanna say abt it anymore..

dont make me disappointed please..
ive always treat you guys with high regards..
i thought it was over & i could continue ma happy life..
i didnt know these would happen.
& i cant imagine you guys did it,
& could joke abt it.
i cant hide ma emotions anymore..
& pretend that nothing had ever happen.

2006-11-26T10:24:00.000-08:00

momo on the 23rd was quite fun. unfortunately, we cant get in to the main dancefloor but only the bars. luckily nick could entertain us or else we might fall asleep. i got tons of things to update but lazy la. btw, i most probably not going zouk on the 30th. people who know me might know the reason. but i'll ton. single life is much better, i dont wanna make both of us suffer either.

theres still misses.
im so sorry.

2006-10-27T10:41:00.000-07:00

its damn bored these few days. i told him to talk to me aft his o's. give me a damn headache. didnt feel like dressing up these few days, wore house clothes and ma nerd specs out with no makeup. thats very rare of me. no idea where to go. gonna meet ma beloved cousin tml! miss her so much. exams made us met less times. im gonna dress up nicely tml!

& people out there. anyone interest to go clubbing at MOMO?
on the ,
23rd of nov'06.
underage party located at MOMO.
for the age 14yrs & above.
&
the price for the ticket is extremely cheap.
$10 for a tic. say the fact, buying from other people may cost for about $16-18.
so..any interested buyer may come to town area(orchard) on this tues,31st of OCT to buy from me & ma friends.
for more info,call or sms me.
91064413, peiyan.

2006-10-23T23:40:00.000-07:00

the jerk outside, you ruined my life. you make me feel so terrible & never had a good day. you make me cant have a good & stable relationship.you make me live in guilt & hurt others.you make me cant defend myself by talking back & saying the truth. you make me the bad one in everyone's eyes.

son of a bitch
death to you.

2006-09-26T04:20:00.000-07:00

its exam this friday, gotta work hard, cant flunk all. theres two free subs period today, maths & cme(assembly). mr ng didnt come, no assembly today. listened to mp3 all day long. got tuiton later. end at nine. gotta go tuition now. bye.

2006-09-20T03:00:00.000-07:00

talked to alot of people yesterday. found that that none really can understand what i feel & how i think, even him. im not blaming anyone. ive said already, the problem lies with me, not anybody else. such a thing is not something that could get over it so fast, i need time. & i need people to understand, give me time. dont rush. & i really dont wish any other else to blame themself, esp him. & people come tell me that he cant sleep well or eat well. what for? i just need time, not break. fuck.

2006-09-18T04:54:00.000-07:00

somethings are hard to say, but having no choice to say it out. & it makes the person real stress & terrible. things happened & being regretful is too late once it had happen. & this things is the shadow in your heart that would never disappeared. even if it could disappear, its the times that really matters. the effect of these things are great, it depends. & nobody else could really understand but only yourself. & you will find it hard to do something again. once it happened, you might think that you have lost everything, your self esteem, confidence, bright cheerful day & the courage, character that you once have. these things makes you doesnt know what to do, things that you like, you cant do. you dislike, but you have to. & you lost the words to tell the reason. to the extent, it makes you & people around you felt terrible.

the things that have happened to me myself, make me lost tons of things, i dont exaggerate & says that ive lost everything. but to me, it lost almost everything. i lost my face, courage, real smile, untiredness, self-confidence, happyday. the things ive lost is the things that have really made me, the true peiyan. & it make me sensitive, thought of many nonsensical things & worse still, make people around me unhappy. so think before you do something..

give me some time, i'll be able to do it.

2006-09-15T08:39:00.000-07:00

got ma ca2 results today. i got 100 for maths. at least this time ma results was much better then the past one. but even though its better, its still not very good. gotta buck up soon. exams coming in two weeks time, afraid that im gonna flunk all ma subjects. chinese & history can suck ma day. now i know the importance of ma former school..haha.

2006-09-14T05:01:00.000-07:00

Jaz just sent me a testimonial. i read it & was so touched, began thinking about memories of the past. & the testi goes like this,

prettiie . i suddenly started looking at the past . how we were in fengshan, enjoying every lesson . disturbing each other . comparing our results . and going around showing off high marks . our 12 relationship wasnt so complicated too . dhe 12 were found most of the time together . sometimes going to far places . playing comp in the fcc comp lab . RO, bunny band for 1k xD . how b0seng john dey all used to kp dhe auntie in the comp lab . sometimes even end up spending our last dollar on rock fever . gosh so much fun . those stupid problems too, like the 77 thingy .and how stupid we used to be . someone who pierced tongue was so amazing to us . hahas . soon everything changed . kindof think abt it . ii miss the simple past . though life was simple . we had many many fun .gees . we went through so much . how we first met . eu kno? something ii would nvr forget . the story of two innocent p2 girls during fengshan exams . girl, youre part of my life . ii love eu .

ohh gorgeous, i love you too. the past was like something that we can never forget. so sweet & sometime later, it grows sour. i can never forget them. sometimes i really dont mind things they do & say. but going on like that they will never know whats really wrong with them. even i dont mind, what about the others. they are not kings that could do whatever they want & we are not slaves to obey whatever thing they says. i miss them so much. thou its a long time since we met, whatever wrong things they did, it too disappointed me deeply.

duh, sleepy. & tired too.

2006-09-11T09:00:00.000-07:00

created this new blog. unlike the previous one, i hid it & only let some people knows that i got a blog. this new blog would be seen by anyone, no more hidden secrets anymore. edited it myself, wonder if its nice anot. i dont know, maybe you guys could give some comments? its 12am now. gotta sleep soon. happy schooling tml! bye.

The way their tears
make you want to
change the world
so that it
doesn't hurt her anymore.....
Yet regardless
if you love them,
hate them,
wish they would die
or know that you would die
without them ...
it matters not.
Because once in your life,
whatever they were to the world
they become everything to you.
We love them for a million reasons,
No paper would do it justice.
It is a thing not of the mind
but of the heart.
A feeling.
Only felt.